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December 1st, 2010


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09:32 pm - And We're Off...
January 19th. I'm counting down the days. I'm so ready to begin my Cosmetology career at McCann. For the longest time I've wanted to go back to school, but have been so scared to. I have finally realized that I am in desperate need of a change in my life. School is that change. I want to better the lifestyle that we are living right now. I want to be proud of myself. I want my children and husband to be proud of me. I want to actually accomplish something.

Aside from Madison and Elliott, what do I have to be proud of? They are the one thing in my life that I have done right. I dont want anything to interfere with that. If it means financially struggling for a few months while I'm in school, then so be it. I refuse to be negative about this situation. This is my childrens' future. I cannot do or think anything that will hinder that.

Mentally, things have been rough. School has been playing tug-of- war in my head, which has lead to a downward spiral of other thoughts. I've been trying to get by as best as I can. But when you feel like you're falling apart at the seams, coping can be difficult.

Two weeks ago, my Daddy had to be admitted into White Deer Run. It's taken me a long time to say this, but he's an alcoholic. His recovery so far has gone amazing, and I'm hoping that everything goes well for him. He's my Daddy. I'm proud of him that he has finally admitted that he needs help. I know he can overcome his addiction, and as a family, this is something we all need to overcome. Not only does he have a daughter who loves him so super much, but these two love him just as much...

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From:fraumickey
Date:December 13th, 2010 06:46 pm (UTC)
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Love the pic! Glad to see you back here on LJ. Sorry to hear about your dad, but from personal experience I can tell you that he can definitely get better. My dad has been sober for at least 10 years at this point. You should be so proud of your dad for starting the process of quitting. I'm glad to know that you are getting ready to go back to school and that you are looking forward to it - good luck!!!! Looking forward to hearing how it all goes.

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